Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Remembering Mother

I've always avoided acknowledging the anniversary of my mother's death, but she has been so much in my thoughts the last couple weeks. She died thirteen years ago. Life goes on, full of many ups and a few downs, but we miss her.


This is not a full-life reflection. I've simply gathered photos taken over the last 15 to 20 years of her life that capture one of her expressions. There are many missing. She is more self-conscious than she was away from a camera. She had a look that could stop me cold at 50 feet. I never thought to capture that one. Today, with cell phones and cameras everywhere, I might be able to. I'm feeling a look just thinking about it. I don't have any of her trying to tell a story and laughing too hard to complete it. Nor of her concentrating intently, be it on a bridge hand, a baseball game, or a book. These are not the mother I knew as a child, nor the woman she was before she had children, nor the wife or daughter. But this is the woman I knew and loved as an adult. This is the mother I miss.

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  1. me too Sis, even though the kids remember Granny, they never got to know her on a grown up level. I know she would have been so in awe of all four grandchildren, their accomplishments, the way they have faced challenges, the people they have chosen to share their lives, their laughter and senses of humor (much of which seems to stem directly from her!)

    I also like to celebrate the day of her birth, but the day of her death has so much more meaning for me -- a great great loss indeed. While we all have gone on and found much joy, at least in my mind, it's always tempered by the fact that she's not here to share it with us. Her million dollar smile, not careful and closed, but wide open and exuberant is my favorite memory

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  2. Susan, your mom was quite stylish, both with hair and clothes, and was photogenic. I know it's a sad day for you, so thanks for sharing these photos. I'll be thinking of you today.

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    1. Thanks, Barb! It makes me happy to think of her - and certainly to see the pictures. I just would rather have been able to speak with her. Such is life.

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  3. Lovely photos and a great tribute, your heart felt words. Well done Susan!

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  4. Susan,

    A beautiful tribute to your mom. I am your 'sister' in heart today and send warm thoughts your way.

    Cheers to you,
    Jennifer

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    1. You're so kind, Jennifer! I know you understand. It is a comfort.

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  5. Sigh. She does look like she enjoyed life. It's wonderful that you had the chance to know her - adult to adult. My mother had a look like that and I would have been scared to try and get a photo of it!

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    1. She did, at least most days. I am often reminded of Mother when you write about your mother.

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  6. What a wonderful photo montage and tribute to your mom, Susan! Such a three-dimensional aura brought about by those few words. Though sharing on anniversary dates can be challenging, thank you for doing so today.

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    1. Thank you, Jacqi! I wanted a multifaceted image.

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  7. The photo montage is beautiful. Hard to believe some are of the same woman, such a variety of expressions and poses. A woman with a zest for life! You are lucky to have these memories.

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    1. How kind you are, Mariann. Thank you. She was a complex person, and so very dear to me. I am lucky to have known her.

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  8. A really vibrant personality certainly shines through in this montage - as my family would have said: She must have been a pistol! Thank you for sharing her with us.

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    1. A pistol. Love that expression, Greta!

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  9. Photos of someone enjoying life are the best tribute. Hope you day was filled with more happy memories than sad thoughts.

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  10. What a wonderful collection of photos and expressions, Susan. It's easy to see that your mother was a very special lady. Hope your memories of her bring you comfort today and every day.

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    1. They do, Shelley. And she was. Thank you.

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  11. Love the collage, Susan. Your mom's smile was infectious...

    I'm grinning as I sit here and look.

    Dee at Shakin' the Family Tree

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  12. Beautiful collage. I'm sure it wasn't easy to do. She was lovely lady, and your post is a wonderful tribute. I've always loved the quote, "To live in the hearts of those we leave behind is not to die." I think that's the most we can wish for...

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